Monday, October 31, 2011

The Memories We Make

A year has come and gone. Children have grown a little to be who they will be. Some people's true colors shine through. Most everything stays the same. But It's little changes. Little triumphs that can shape and mold you. Life is peppered with new memories . Ones we are making. Together and by myself with people who have always and now matter.

Our Halloween was happy. We had fun. We are strong. Just the three of us. If your reading this. And you know who you are... Thank you for the confirmation tonight. Keep your comments to the peanut gallery. Threads that are golden don't break easily.

Sunday, October 30, 2011

Yes. I am

I have been sitting for awhile thinking about a particular burden. I looked at all of its angles. Weighed it all out. I have thought it through and through. I prayed on it and have asked God to help me reach the point I feel I need to be at. I gathered myself up. And I said simply no. And it felt good to say no. To draw a line of boundaries and stick to it. Choices were made and sacrifices come of those choices. It's not my bed that needs to be laid in.

Sunday, October 23, 2011

A true story.

And the mommy said come here and give me a kiss and the little handsome boy said ok just one kiss with a pouty face and a grumble because he's quickly growing out of her kisses ...

Catch me if you can ...

At Ardenwood historical farm with my sons on a sunny carefree day. I love this picture. I loved being with them strolling the gardens and farm. Getting lost in the quiet all around even tho it seemed busy. I loved hearing the giggles and laughs as we played duck duck goose and Simon says. Games from my childhood. They play rough, boys. They don't politely tap your head while chanting duck ... Duck ... Goose they slap their hands down. They stomp their feet. I often watch them walk and their strides are familiar shoulders hunched a certain way. Legs long and muscular.

Gabriel takes long sure of him self strides. A swagger and confidence much like his father. He knows when we walk in to certain homes or around certain people the attention turns away from the family unit and he commands an audience. He is charming and can turn it on and off like a switch. Funny how he has already learned and cultivated this craft.

David takes smaller quiet steps. Every bit of a rough and tumble boy like his brother but his way is quiet. He needs to be coaxed into mischief often... He plays the Indian to his brothers chief. He is very much like me when I was young. Shy and quiet. Smiles often but only the real true David comes out to shine when he's in his comfort zone. Certain people pull his confidence out. He loves praise and compliments he craves his own attention and eats it up with a spoon. Fridays are my days with David. All morning long he is the center of the universe to me. We chat. We sing songs. We spend the alone time I think he needs. Time my mom made for me as I played the Indian to my little sisters chief. His charm is in the expressions on his face. The sweet sound of his voice and his curl of his lips as his mouth forms his words. His sweetness is amazing to me. It's almost constant unless he is throwing a fit which does sometimes happen ... He has a temper and can lose his head quickly.

After work everyday I come home and cook them dinner from the time we get in until bedtime we spend the minutes unbothered by the tv. I refuse to turn it on. We sit at the table and talk about their days. What they learned. Who they played with. Why they need to eat the food I make. We do flash cards and homework after. We read stories and I sit and listen to them talk to each other. I keep paper and pen near by and scribble down the things they say. I need to update their twitter feed . I still plan on printing out all of the cute things they say now and give it to them when they are older. Maybe when they become fathers.

Friday, October 21, 2011

Have a happy weekend !

Tuesday, October 18, 2011

Weekly hodge podge

Bits and pieces of the week. Littles,eats so on and so forth. So much is happening right now I am very excited about all of it. I'm making plans and looking forward to many new adventures and some old routines. I find myself getting anxious. Counting down days. Tick tick tock I really can't wait.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

a quick thought

The end of the weekend...

It was a good one. I rested. I celebrated. I proved something to myself. I snuggled. I kissed. I answered the questions of how are you?how have you been ? With a smile and sincere I am great!!! With a heart not weighed down or filled with sorrow anymore. Those days are long past and although there is still the occasional twinge of pain it's fleeting and quick.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

Happy Birthday

To my first little, my cousin Robert. 18 years ago yesterday he was welcomed into the world with lots of love. He and I are very close. Always have been always hope to be. Not only is he my little cousin he is my friend. I love him like a son and cherish him. A day usually does not go by that I am not in some form of communication with him. And if we happen to go longer then a day we get busy catching up when we do talk. No one on earth can make me laugh the way Robert can. His sheer authenticity makes him one if a kind. I look forward to seeing what he will do with his life who he will finally become and I wish him boat loads of happiness and good fortune that is my birthday wish to him ... My third (actually he was my first ) brat!
Xo veggie L

- Curlie Girlie blogging on the go!

Drum roll please ...

I finally have it after years of waiting on it imaging what it would be how it would look. Finally after long last I present you with ... Gabriel's kindergarten photo.

Oh my goodness! Isn't it the sweetest little kindergarten photo you have ever laid your eyes on? It's way cuter then mine ...

I just love the little smile on his face. He looks so sweet.

- Curlie Girlie blogging on the go!

Monday, October 10, 2011

Alone with the camera. Alone with my thoughts

My last post I wrote how David loves playing with my iPhone. He loves all of the games I have purchased for them and especially the camera. He's got a little artistic eye.

It was not until later that day that I discovered these photos he took. As I was browsing through the little collection he took I thought to myself what was he thinking. Did he know he was taking pictures? Does he know how handsome and sweet and special he is? Does he know that the sun the moon and the stars and all of my love hang on him and his brother, that i love them with everything I am?

There are times that I am alone with my sons. Actually, I am often alone with my sons . our little family and I watch them
Play. I listen to them giggle and talk to each other. And I feel a swell of pride. No more sadness for what was lost by us. Instead it's a feeling of accomplishment for all that I have done. All that we have solidered through. We are still here. The world continues to turn. Clouds are still filled with rain and the sun still shines. Children will still laugh and cry, and honestly all has become alright in my world... All is right in the world. We are exactly where we are supposed to be .

- Curlie Girlie blogging on the go!

Sunday, October 9, 2011


Last week my dear friend Chera invited David and I to lunch. I have been hearing her gab gab gab about the food truck mafia in a nearby town . We went. We grubbed. We burped with happy full bellied foodie delight.

That was our burger with a side of sweet potato fries. It was the yum.

While we nibbled our burgers away I gave David my phone to play with he took some random shots.

This was one of me

Here is Chera

And one of David with a chocolate face. He had Mexican chocolate ice cream from the ice cream truck.

It was a delicious sort of day.

- Curlie Girlie blogging on the go!